tadi

he came to my house today. we havent meet each other for 5 days. i miss him so much. hmm. tpu la x rindu. td aku btol2 happy. dlu slalu sgt jumpe so x rase rindu sgt tp skang dah mule rase gap sbb masing2 busy. i miss the old days. the old us. seriously. i am trying my best for us so that we do not fight anymore. i really love you arin. myb my physical reaction do not shows that i love you but deep inside of me i know that my heart belongs to you. i just want to say im sorry because i hurt you before. i feel really bad for myself. myb i am still scared. im scared if anything happen to us. hmm. i know that you love me sooo much and theres no one can love me the same way like you did. hmm. i just want to say i love you and i really really really appreciate all the things that you had done to me. and all the sacrifices. thats all for now. <3

early in the morning

pg td. nk g clss ni. ye la excited la kn nk g clss setelah 2 bulan jd baby sitter yg berjaya kt umah kn. al maklumlah dah 2 bulan dok umah. semgt la ni nk g clss. lg2 pg2 ni clss agama. aku pn pkai la tdung. ayu nok! haha. dgn bju kurg yg bersih n mmg lawa la ni. at 7.30 cm tu aku smpai lrt melati n naik train. dok kt tgh2 coach tu. aku pn bukak la buku readers digest sbb boring kn. 45 minutes perjalanan aku pn smpai la taman bahagia kn. aku pn cnfident la ni kua dr train. pastu b4 kua train. aku tgk ade one girl ni tgk aku. aku pn perasan la kn. haha. cntrol ayu je kua dr train. ble nk trun je tangga tbe2! masyaallah! bju kurg aku belah kanan habis ade hitam! tompok2 besar plak tu. arghhhh!! pg2 plak tu kne. aku punye nk cover aku pn pgg je la bju aku yg ade minyak itam tu. smpai kt college. tgk2 kt tgn pn ade taw! sdeyh aku. dah la bju kurg aku putih. aku pn tepaksa la jd x malu pkai bju tu. so pengajaran die kt cni. jgn la cntrol ayu walau di mana jua kome berada. nnt jd cm aku. pdn muke.

kejadian kelaka

1. hehe. aku dgn adik aku c maisarah gemok saje la lwn2 mulot kn. aku nyakat la die. ape mnde nta die ckp. yg mak aku plak x abeh2 nyanyi lagu faizal tahir yg 'gemuruh jiwa'. nta ape hal nta. kebetulan plak aku tgh nyakat sarah. pastu aku ckp ko tu sarah 'the fatty one'. die bengang dgn aku n ckp okay. ko menyakitkn hati aku. die kate. haha. aku pn gelak je la. mase tu die dlm blik air. aku dlm blik mak tgh iron rmbut. pastu mak msuk bilik nyanyi gemuruh jiwa semangat membara. tbe2 je sarah ckp 'dah la kak, x yah la nyanyi,suara bukan sedap pn' die pndg aku dgn muke annoying die. pastu mak aku sound 'eyh! sorry sikit! aku la yg nyanyi! aku sepok ko kang!' aku bntai gelak kaw2 nya. aku ckp kt sarah. tu la ko. dosa dgn aku lg. hahahah.

2. amir adik aku yg konon hensem tu tnye la aku 'kak pelampung in english ape?' aku pn pk. 'alamak,aku x igt la'. pastu die tnye sarah. 'yah pelampung ape in english?' sarah pn ckp 'pelempoong' in loghat english. aku senyum je la. pastu amir ckp 'ko nk pelempang'. haha. pdn muke sarah!

3. sarah, aku dgn amir tgh study. tbe2 sarah bertanya kepada abgnye(sarah lg) 'abg amir, kenapa kite dr kecik pgg buku, sekolah rendah pgg buku,skang pn pgg buku jgk? smpai ble2 la pgg buku?' aku pn diam je la. tbe2 amir dgn selambanye jwb ' abeh tu? ko nk pgg ape? pgg perot?' hahahahahahaha. aku punye gelak. sbb ape amir ckp mcm tu? sbb sarah bdn die kn besar. kesian adik aku ni. asyik kne tiaw je.

4. adik aku yg besar mcm gajah tu. c fadhli. x jemur kain dah 3 hari. dah 2 bakul kain dah die x jemur. aku mls la nk jemur kn. keje die so die kne jemur, b4 ni aku je yg tolg. so skang ni rasekn. hehe. pastu amir cari la boxer die. x jumpe2. tgk2 x jemor lg. so amir bengang la. then die ckp 'li,ko x yah jemor kain,x yah jemor lgsung k? nnt kalo da xde kain ktorg sume pkai kotak x pn pkai daun tutup tetek dgn yg bwh tu.' hahahah. haaa. setepek kne. lgsung esok tu jmor kain teros. haha. klaka.

cita2

cita2 ni main peranan untuk mase dpn kite. bak kate paktam. ekonomi kene stabil tp jgn jdkn duit tu sebagai tuhan dan begitu jugak pakwe. haha. i x perli u okay arin. i tau u mcm mne. i just tulis utk kesedaran org ramai. smpaikn ape yg paktam ckp. hehe. all of this is not about you taw.hmm. my ambition is to be a sucessful restaurant owner. at the sme time aku nk buat keje2 amal. tu yg pnting. hm. cita2 korg? capai la cita2 utk dunia dan akhirat. tp jgn sesekali jdkn duit tu sbg tuhan. duit tu sebagai alat. ye aku suke ckp lepas kdg2 sbb sumtimes mnde tu buat aku marah. hmm. and to all of my friends you have to be very positive, believe in yourself, yakin, an tetap pendirian. jgn berubah2. dont doubt. rempuh je dlm ape sahaja yg kita buat and the rest leave it to ALLAH S.W.T. tp kena ade usaha. kalo usaha xde ape pn x jd. itu ape yg aku terapk dlm diri aku. once i said no that means no. sbb ku xnk org anggap aku lemah. seorang wanita yg lemah. aku xnk. aku nk jd wanita yg tabah. mcm siti khadijah dgn siti aishah. lantak la korg nk ckp aku ni da insaf ke ape ke sbb ape yg aku ckp ni btol. sbb tu ramai kwn2 aku x leh thn dgn mlut aku sbb ape yg aku ckp tu btol. and facts. tp aku mintak maaf kalo aku terkasar. aku xde la kasar sgt. yg membuatkn aku kasar tu atas kesalahn kwn2 aku sndri. aku kalo kne sound aku redha je. sbb aku tau ape yg dorg ckp tu salah aku. so ape yg perlu aku buat is betolkn blk la ape yg salah n dont repeat the same mistake. simple as that. and dlm ape jua keadaan aku xkn putus asa n aku tau aku boleh buat. insyallah.

mcm2 hal

especially to wanita. hmm. sdeyh aku ble tgk org buang anak. hmm. takot aku nk ckp pasal hal ni. aku ade adk pmpn ade adk lki. hmm just that kite jdkn mnde tu iktibar. jgn pndai main tp x pndai jage anak. kdg2 laki nk besar setan die. bile die nk kite die bukan main la ayat cintan die. tp ble da dpt die tglkn kite,suruh buang anak. kalo buang tp idop xpe lg. ni anak tu die bunuh terus. hmm. sdeyh la tgk. sbb tu aku ckp zaman ni akhir zaman.

bercakap tentang hati dan perasaan.

zaman skang hati kena bersih. x leh ade dendam. x leh ade perasaan dengki. x leh ade perasaan yg jahat la dlm hati ni. huhu. skang ni guru aku ckp kite kene jage hati. hati kene bersih. tu yg aku post kt wall fb aku yg pasal ' buat sesuatu bukan untuk kepentingan diri sendiri tetapi buat sesuatu itu kerana allah dan buat dgn hati yg ikhlas'hmm. ape yg aku ckp ni btol. jgn la kite wat sumthing tu bertujuan. buat kerana allah je. sbb aku dsppnted dgn sikap org yg selfish,yg kaki bodek, kaki kipas,sudah2 la tu. bukan dpt pahala pn. grm plak aku ble dorg buat mcm ni. hmm. aku admit lately ni aku cpt marah sbb mcm2 perangai aku jumpe ble aku kua. cth cm smlm. aku g oldtown kt ampang dgn parents aku smbl tgu adik aku amir nk msuk hspital. ramai gle org kt oldtown mase tu. smpai2 je waitress die cm pukimak ckp 'xde table' tp x ckp kt aku ckp jauh2. aku nk kncing so aku pn g la kncing. kua2 tu aku ade la nmpk table kosg. aku pn cpt2 la pgl parents aku suruh duduk. cpt2 lari waitress xde gg tu dr lua ni ckpdah ade og. aku pn angin la. aku ckp kua2 'ADA ORG?' bia org dgr. grm aku. eyh bodoh ko x nmpk ke mak bpk aku yg da tua ni nk duduk? aku nk je ckp mcm tu. ktorg dpt table kt belah lua xde bumbung dkt sgt dgn lampu yg terang benderang. tp aku x kesah la kn jnji parents aku dpt duduk. pastu tgh2 syok mkn. hujan. hmm. sian mak dgn abah. yg pmpn td tu x brani kua dr kedai. duduk dlm je. tnjuk muka pn x brani. grm aku. sgt bodoh taw. x leh pk ke? x serve pn ktorg nsb baik yg serve tu okay. laki cina plak tu. elok je ckp. aku ckp kua2 aku ckp igt ktorg xde duit ke? hmmm. tu la manusia zaman skang. xde adab. xde budi bahasa. mak bpk x ajar. n aku x phm dgn org yg x hormat kt parents dorg x syg parents dorg. PENTINGKAN LAGI BOYFRIEND AND KAWAN X PUN JAGE SGT HATI MAK BOYFRIEND ATAU GIRLFRIEND TAPI MAK KANDUNG PUNYA HATI X RETI JAGA. kdg2 aku terpk dorg ni ade pk x mak n ayah tu mcm mne. ade pk x dorg hurt? hmm. kdg2 ibu atau ayah mmg buat kita marah. tp dorg stil mak bpk kite. kite jgn buat dorg menangis. kena jage hati dorg. sbb dorg yg melahirkn kite di dunia ni. aku just nk kwn2 aku dan semua org yg bc blog aku ni igt PARENTS TU NOMBOR 1. yg lain tu x penting pn. ok? sbb zaman kite ni ramai org derhaka kt mak n bpk tu mmg cnfirm2 msuk neraka.

tension stress

aku marah la dgn situation skang. marah. panas hati. sume la. mmg this whole week aku depressed. sakit tgn n kaki aku tumbuk n tendang almari. aku x suke la pakngah aku. aku marah la. np la ape yg aku wat sume x kene. np la org x phm aku. np? aku dah lame gle x update blog. tolg la tolg la. jgn bg aku tnsion. aku x suke ble aku marah. nnt aku ckp lps je. nnt sume org hurt. aku busy aku serabut. np kdg2 org asyik pk pasal die je? aku jd mangsa kedaan. i am trying my damn hard and my very best to please everybody and sometimes i get tired of this. cume aku mls nk pk je. aku ni dgn sijil rendah lg. dgn final exams. theres a lot of stuff that i must think of smpai x terjaga la diri ni. aku pnt. blk dr college dah la jauh. ulang alik plak tu. blk kne marah sbb adik2 sepah kn umah. dah la pnt. everyday training. ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya allah aku marah taw. marah. ya allah aku bersyukur sbb jadikn aku org yg sbr.

oh god

makhluk allah sorg ni. tolg la paham!

terase cm nk nanges

x tau np. sensitive sgt. bia la. jgn lynkn perasaan sgt.

rase cm rugi

difan! ayah did kne strok!!! hmm. aku ade lah rindu sorg mmber lame ni. nta la. budak skolah taman melawati. bg aku la kn. die kwn baik aku la. tp.... ble aku pindah skolah. ktorg dah renggang. n ble aku msuk mwati blk,die dah jumpe kwn bru die pn tgglkn aku. aku admit aku freak dlu. huk3. but peoples change. hmm. aku rindu die do! rindu gle. tp rase cm bodoh gak sbb die bkn nye dulik pasal aku pn. hmm. xkn aku nk ckp kt die aku rindu die after 3 years x bertego. tol x? mst la die ckp aku plek. alaa. nk nanges pn ye. tp.. die x amek pot lgsung pasal aku. aku je yg btol2 rindu die cm bodoh plak. name die tia. kalo die bace la blog ni kn. aku x kesah la ape yg die nk ckp pasal aku. jnji aku dah luahkn dr aku simpan. haha. bia la. just nk luahkn je. hmm. kdg2 smpai nk ajak die kua. nk lpk2 dgn die n hang out mcm dlu2. mase form 2 dlu. tp x yah kot. xpe la. angan2 je la. haha. sdey aku. urgh! nta la. aku rindu kawan aku yg aku anggap sahabat dulu. tp nk wat mcm mne. bia la. hehe. xpe la. aku je la yg kne carik kwn yg btol2 stick dgn aku. okay then. tu je.

did

did. tabah kan hati. we are always there for you. doa byk2. allah maha mendengar and maha pemakbul. doa ye. kuat kan hati. anngap ni satu ujian dr tuhan. terima dgn redha. sayang ko.

ekin yg dah x suke nk amek pot

haih. smlm mcm2 hal jd kt college. mls aku nk amek tau. kang aku plak yg kene. tp kesian la member aku tu. die kne tanggung kn. but i advice her allready not to take sides. and jgn interfere. tp tu la. kesian die. dah la die kakak. bdk2 x hormat die. aku dah ckp dah 'kak, wat hal akak sendiri kak,jgn pk org dah. pk dri akak plak. kite nye study tu yg penting dr dorg ni. nnt kite jgk yg rugi.' sbb ape aku ckp mcm ni. sbb aku rase cm x yah la nk pk pasal masalh org n msuk cmpur hal org. nnt org ckp kite menyebok. n nnt org ckp kite ni tunjuk pndai. mule2 tu aku agak marah adgn perangai bdk2 college aku . tp ble aku tego mcm mne pn. dorg still wat mnde yg same. so aku decide not to amek pot dah. nnt aku plak yg kene. so kwn je dgn sume org. and focus on my study. n x take sides. mmg grm ble dgr akak tu kne mcm tu. tp kdg2 bosan sbb asyik dgr mnde yg same. mcm tgk tv la kan. asyik la tgk cte yg same. pi mai pi mai tang tu la ibaratnye. kalo korg pn mst bosan kn. so aku dgr je la. n takat bg pndapat je la bile die mintak. cth cm kwan mak aku tu. suke sgt msuk cmpur hal family ktorg. aku x suke. sbb tnjuk pndai. aku nk je ckp. 'weyh, ko jage je la family ko, dok diam2 kt umah jage anak'. haha. tu je la iktibar nye. and2 result aku semakin bgus. syukur alhamdulillah. dah improve. hope sem 2 ni x terok sgt. thats all. (p/s: i love you arin).

suke aku!

chelsea2!! chelsea2!!walaupn aku bkn peminat chelsea. tp aku mmg suke ble MU kalah. ahaha. maaf ye peminat mu. hak3.

Double fuck for those of you.

Double fuck just for a person that love to Flirt around.

Double fuck just for a person that need a Sympathy.

Double fuck just for a person that need Sex.

Double fuck just for a person that tried to take her Away.

Double fuck just for a person that need Attention.

Double fuck just for a person that tried to make her Down

Double fuck just for a person that need her when you are Down.

Double fuck just for a person that need to tell The World what is going on.

Double fuck just for a person that need to be Act care to her.

Im so tired for all this shit guys.

Im not playing around guys.

Enough is enough, look foward.

Dont do the Lame things.

Afterall im the one that make her calm.

So please make yourself usefull.

Im not joking, im serious.

Okay?

I love you so much Gigirl.

-arin-

tgk la arin!! dah gemok!! tee hee.

hehe. tp kan ramai orang cakap muke arin nmpk mude lg dari aku taw. xpe la. die gemok!! ahahahah

tee hee. comel kan die? and dah gemok la arin ni. hahaha.

p/s i love you

aku yg dah semakin gemok tgk la perubahan aku. haha

tengok ni gmbr2 aku!! urgh!! gemok dan hodoh!!! huk3. lg2 gmbr ikat rmbut. benci taw.!! ade ke ptt butang sua aku tercabut mase aku duduk. depan arin plak tu!! huk33. aku dah gemok!

dis blog is officially shared with mr arin

tu je

nak pindah la

nak pindah la pulak. adouai. mcm2 dugaan la dis sem. xpe2. dugaan. redha2. today got carving class. hope i do well la.

setelah lame x update blog

tee hee. dah lame nye x update blog. kn kn kn? tersgt la busy skang ni. sbb dis sem agak tough la. nk kne score byk2. last sem dpt 3.38 je. sigh** tp okay la. kire worth it la jgk pnt lelah aku ulang alik dr taman melati ke kj. hehe. tun sorry x dpt g umah u. sbb teramat2 busy. nk selesaikn all of my assignments + i lupe sbb trlmpau busy. so sorry ya. pastu mcm2 hal la jd dis past few weeks. bdk2 cls aku wat hal dgn lecturer. hadoy. bkn nye wat hal je mslhnye kuang ajar dgn lect. gle bodoh. faiz. pls la be a grown up person. u r 18 already. so be matured man! ble lg. college life is not the same as school life u know. haihh. pastu x nk ngaku salah plak tu. pasni kalo die wat hal lg aku mls nk amek pot. aku dah tego. so pasni its all up to you wether u want to change or not. ive done my job already. okay? pastu arin pn okay jgk. my relationship dgn die so far so good. happy je. gadoh tu biase. hehe. ape2 pn he always there beside me whenever i need someone to talk to. tp skang dah lame la x ber socialize dgn kwn2. rindu plak rasenye. dah lame x jumpe kwn2 aku. sigh**. tp xpe sbb masing2 sebok nk final kn? aku pn final bln 12 ni. takot plak. nnt la ble dah cuti kite jumpe k guys? smlm c difan yg dah jd ladies tu cll aku. bahahah. jgn marah difan. ape la ko minah. len kali cll le aku awal2. bleh lpk gn ko. len kali ko plan dlu sume then kite hang out k syg? aku pn dah lame gle x jumpe ko kn? pastu smlm my brother wat suprise. die kate x blk dis week tp blk jgk akhirnye. rindu akak ye amir. hehe. pastu die cte la kt aku mcm2 die ckp awek die dah brubah la ape la. aku ckp la. awek ko bru knl dunia tu. but mira x ptt la lyn amir mcm tu. adik aku tu penybr gle. x suke gak die wat amir mcm tu. endah x endah je. x boleh la kn? mcm2 jgk la terjadi cume aku mls sgt nk pk je. sbb takot ganggu konsentrasi aku towards study. aku nk score btol2. nk jd chef yg berjaya. x pn restaurant owner yg berjaya. its time for me to help mak n abh la plak kn. xpe kin! you can do it! hehe. and aku happy je skang ni. RAMBUT DAH PJG!! haha. suke aku. curl2 aku dah mule kua dah. pasni dah btol2 xnk color dah. nk rmbut itam plak. hehe. n pasni aku nk wat blog pasal kitchen la plak. nk update. so that aku igt ape yg aku wat. n hari2 aku nk improve dri aku. n make something new. tu je la. okay then!

emm

dah lame x update blog. alamak. one of my ex schoolmate(taman melawati) ask me to go to her open house dis sat. alamak how? i have no confidence at all la. hmm. after all that had happen to me after dis few years makes me feel sooo down graded about myself. adoai. can i make it? x nk g la. tp da jnji nk g. huk3. segan la. xde confidence. xpe la. just go through la kn? sbb mmg avoid la bdk mwt. all the mwatians. hmm.